My Misery

Posted by N3r3N Aug 10, 2009 10 comments My Life

When you’re married…Do you have to always understand your significant other? Do you have to always forgive whatever he does to you even when it hurts? Do you have to forget your self worth just because you love him? Do you? Because I do but i want to change. I want to not love him anymore, i want to not be with him anymore, I want to just forget about him. I want to just go home and be with my family and friends who loves me  unconditionally.I am really disappointed and hurt and depressed for so long now.I don’t like my life here, i don’t like the way he disrespect me all the time.I never thought this is my life here, i was happy when i was still in the Philippines.I may not have a significant other there but i was happy and contented.Because nobody hurts me emotionally and physically.Nobody is treating me like shit there.Ever since I got here in the U.S. I’ve lost my self worth but I want it all back now, i want my life back.Even though i am already married I still hope that someday somehow there is someone out there who will love me unconditionally.Someone who care’s about me and NOT disrespect my whole being.Is that wrong for me to feel? I never wanted to feel this way but if you’re in my situation you probably left him now.I don’t know why I’m still here, maybe because I’m stuck, i can’t do anything.I hope someday i will be free.


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Loyal Friend and Visitor Award!

Posted by N3r3N Aug 9, 2009 9 comments Awards

Wow! I got another award again ahehehe and it’s from Out of the blue who’s a regular visitor of mine.I never expected this to happen ahem and  I have no formal speech ready for this award but thank you so much Out of the blue for being a loyal friend and visitor! I really appreciate this award so much.Muuah!

Now I would love to share this award to my other friends who deserves this award too.Please check below…


Thanks to the following loyal visitors and friends:

• 1. Karen
• 2. Cuteboo
• 3. Joni
• 4. Seikos Diary
• 5. DorothyL
• 6. YOU

Here are the simple rules:

1. Copy the loyal picture above.

2. Pass it to who you think is/are deserving.

3. Leave a message to them.

4. Pass as many as you want.

5. Message back or leave a comment to the owner.

Another boring day…

Posted by N3r3N Aug 9, 2009 1 comment My Life

Hi Everyone! Sorry I have no exciting news for you. But to keep you updated I’m gonna tell you what i did today. Well, today is just another boring day…there’s nothing much to do, there’s no one to talk to except myself and to make the situation worsen me and my hubby had another argument last night as always. So we’re not talking again and I’m all alone in the house today and probably will sleep all alone tonight too! Sad day right? Yeah i know… I think I’m going crazy!!! Imagine the house with no one to talk to except you walking around. Tell me what you gonna do? You have no car to go out, no friends, you’ve got nothing! Well, to kill my boredom I had to do something and that is to find a new thing to do. Thank goodness I remember got a new book yesterday called Woman’s Day “Word – Finds”.Oh my gosh I spent all day looking for words hahaha. I enjoyed it a lot, it makes me forget about everything and just focus on one thing and that is to find a certain words hehehe. I really liked it; I’ve always enjoyed doing this since I was in High school. I’m not sure but it seems to me you’d get some benefit in increasing your powers of observation, focus, and attention to detail. Those are all good things to have, and would probably increase your learning ability. What about you? What is your new thing to do? Please tell me maybe I will get an idea of what other things to do. Okay?  I gotta go now, take care everyone…it’s time for me to say ta~ta~ Talk to you later! Muaah!